The Law of Attraction, reap what you sow

The thing about all these concepts is that sometimes I forget about them until it sneaks up on me.  I am sure I benefit from the reminders, even if it doesn't really feel good at the time. 

I had an incident recently with a man who was very, very angry.  It only showed up when it came to the sex.  When he was just talking to me, he was just the opposite.  He was very gentle, and wanting to pick my brain.  I felt him as genuinely interested and engaged.  So, the angry man that showed up was completely unexpected.

He grabbed me so hard it hurt from the get go.  It hurt.  This makes very little sense to me.  I've never had this experience before.  Like, I am a pretty sturdy woman and take a good hard pounding, so, I was like?!?!?!?!?!  What the fuck!  I had this conversation in my head about if it really was hurting or if maybe I was just over reacting. 

Now that is bad.  Note to self:  always accept what you know that you know. 

He kept asking me if he was hurting me and I kept telling him that he was.  But, he didn't really stop with the force.  I didn't make him leave.  That's the part that makes me not so happy with myself and where the real lesson is for me.

After considering the magnitude of what I created and seeing how black and blue my tits were, I landed on the Law of attraction thing with the help of my best girlfriend.  What was I so angry about that I had kept under the surface of my daily activities......

I usually think of myself as a positive woman and pretty happy.  Then when I thought about what I am angry about, I rambled off a list of about 5-6 things without a hesitation.  So, there it is.  I am angry and very lucky my opportunity for clarity wasn't much worse than it was.

The point here is that what I feel is energetically put out into the universe.  What I receive back is the same feeling.  It's never any different, if it's good, or if it's bad.  How it comes is often times in a very unexpected form.

There is a lot of talk about this natural law.  That's a good thing because it is a real thing. All I'm suggesting here is that it works both for creating positive and for negative.

I am grateful I was reminded of how not to forget that.

Sex a cure for a bad back, That's odd

It's so wonderful how I get life lessons from the strangest places.  I am sure that we all do and, for me it's most amusing.

So, I have just been doing my normal doings that I do and somehow threw my back out.  I mean, I really threw it out to the point I truly was feeling incapacitated.  I think I did it just picking something up the wrong way.  Regardless, it got so bad, I could move without calling out for help to literally move me.

Now, logic would dictate that a doctor, a chiropractor, rest, and all of that would be the next thing to do, right?  AHHH, WRONG!  Maybe it's just me but, I like to go to the list of things that works for me and my #3 is sex.  (Yes, number 3)  So, sex it is...

I will admit that there was some apprehension at first.  My back pain was sevear. My man was put in a bit of a pickle.  You know he wanted to smash it so good and yet, he really wasn't into hurting me. Nice challenge, huh? The start was a much slower process than what I'm used to and it was perfect. 

We started out laying side by side and he slipped it in from behind.  That's when the me part of me switched into my natural state.  I fucked him back.  The sex was hard and deep, the way I like it. we did several positions as usual and all was good except when I laid on my back, that wasn't as comfortable, but no pain which was outstanding considering the situation.

We basically had sex several times during the night and agian in the morning.  Now, mind you, I had to have help into the bed.  The next morning, I just got up.  I just got up and out of the bed I had to be poured into because of back pain. 

This beautiful man pounded me hard again and again and apparently pounded the pain right out of me.  WOW!  I like it when I get unexpected surprises like that...

So, a couple of things to note:

1.  Create and use a list of things that works for you

2.  Honor yourself with a partner who is kind and show up as yourself always.

much love....

Never Enough

The thing about great sex is that I'm never done.  There is no finish line. 

Out in the open, a regular jiggle fest

It's just what I think and how I feel when it comes to being on top of my man all naked and all....

 There is something deeply uncomfortable for me when I'm up there.  It's like, "hello, won't you please see all my flab jiggle now, all up close and personal."  I haven't really liked being that exposed much.  It has been very uncomfortable for me.

And how funny is that?!!??!  Afterall, he does have an idea of what I look like.  Clearly I am not some 20 year old twig. (not that that is a bad thing)  He probably likes looking at all my bouncing parts doing their thing.  Anyway, I digress.  The point here is that it seems to me how odd that I feel so exposed up on top when I'm probably more exposed laid out and all spread eagle.  HUMMMMM

Maybe it's the jiggle thing.  I certainly have enough to freely move with the motion of the ahhhh...ocean?  You know what I mean.  lol  I don't like for my stuff to bounce around with utter abandon and the funny thing is, I find it very sexy when I watch porn and see the women's boobs all bouncing around and, I'm not gay.  Go figure.

I have found that being on top is very fun, even satisfying but only when I get out of my own way.  Meaning, I just can't think about what I am looking like, it completely takes waway from the gratifying experience.  So, ladies, perhaps that is a significant lesson here for us to get.

GET OUT OF YOUR HEAD AND INTO THE MOMENT!  Yep, that's what I'm talking about.  It's so much more pleasurable that way.  Besides, aren't jigglly things fun!

So, yea, go on and have a regular jiggle fest and maybe even make the jiggle fest a regualr thing to have!

The Power of Clarity

Sometimes I amaze myself with the things I create.  I mean I feel things and hear things in my head and when I declair them into the world, especially out loud, it's like getting hit over the head with a two by four to me how God listens.

I have this thing I use called a list of things that works for me, and yes, sex is one of them, even in the top 5.  So, I do use it when things in my life just aren't going the way I say I'd like them to go.  The other night I was feeling like I was in a place of stuck.  Yuck, stuck does not work for me in the slightest degree.  So, I was thinking that perhaps having some great sex would work for me unsticking myself.  I love how it releases all my creative and inspired subconscious energies.

I always have a dependable resource for this particular technique of unstick and so I reached out to that resource.  Listen, it may seem a bit tawdry to some of you and whatever.... I know who I am and I know what works for me.  Besides, it's not like an army of people before me haven't done the same exact thing. 

Anyway, I found it a bit odd when lover boy did not respond.  He is usually pretty much right on it and for some reason or an other, it wasn't happening that way for me this time.  Not so much sure what to think about that at the time.

As odd as that was for me, what didn't change was my clarity.  I was as clear as clear that I was going to have some excellent sex and I was going to have it soon, ...soon, soon. :)

Ok, so back to my story, out of the blue I got a message from a beautiful man from one of these dating web sites who I had been talking to for a couple of weeks, if you could call it that.  He had basically sent me 2 emails that said hello. Literally.  The third email came this night and it was a dinner invitation.  So, I dove in.  I completely dove in.

It's the clarity thing.  It really does work  After all, we are all energy right?  And we all come from the same energetic place. Not to get all woo woo on you, but there really is a super conscious realm and that's exactly where feelings and thoughts go babe.  Just sayin.

When I was driving out to meet at a central location I continued to revel in my commitment of having great sex.  The only thing that had changed were two things; one, I had changed my resource to my date for the evening, and something else that was shockingly unexpected.  I kept getting this message to be his girlfriend.  Tonight, be his girlfriend.  Act like his girlfriend, feel like his girlfriend, you are his girlfriend.  This is what was ringing in my head for the bulk of the time it took me to get to my location.

Look, I didn't want any part of the BS.  It was ridiculous frankly and I am here just working on unsticking myself, not any of this nonsense.  But, after all these years, I have learned to listen to spirit most of the time.  So, away I went into this little adventure with my giant delicious man. 

He pulled up and I got a brief look at him.  He turned the car around and I got out of my car and walked towards his.  When I leaned into the car window, he simply said;"wow!"  And after I sat down he said I was gorgeous and leaned over and kissed me.  It was as natural as the sky is blue.  It was easy and ever so lovely.  Clearly, I was his girlfriend. It just felt that way.

Clarity people....CLARITY

The details of the rest of the date are pretty incredible.  I mean we met at 6:41pm and I got home at 4:15am.  Perhaps I will fill in the blanks at some point, but for now let me just say that it was right after that first kiss that I looked at him and told him point blank that I had set an intension on the way over of being his girlfriend that night and he responded to me that yea, that was good.  I said it to him directly into his eyes and said it out loud.  He didn't even flinch.

The funny thing is, in my mind I was just talking about that night, just for that particular date.  So there is a very important detail to note and that is to be very clear on what you declare.  I was thinking I would be his girlfriend tonight, for the evening, just the feel of being his girlfriend.  What God and spirit received was that I would be his girlfriend tonight, as in starting tonight.  Not that I am complaining in any way shape or form. I am simply making point here.

I am his girlfriend, the girlfriend of my giant delicious man!  Yummy!

CLARITY baby, clarity.